TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!! OK, lets be real.. it's more like "today is my birthday"...you know, minus all the screaming and excitement. Yes. I am now 25. OOOH. I am a little confused though..... I mean, when I see myself in my mind, I'm still 18. maybe a fluffier 18, but young still, ya know? Then I see pictures of me NOW ( we just had some taken for Valentines Day... will post later) I am DEFINATELY not a teenager anymore. I may feel and act a bit immature, but the wrinkles around my eyes place me in a much older catagory. damn it. Who'd of thought I'd actually care, you know? Maybe it's just that the 18 year old me saw myself in a much different place at 25.... wait wait, I can't be 25 yet! I haven't accomplished any of the goals I set for myself at 25!! I'M STILL 18, I'M STILL 18......PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!! So, being 25 now officially sucks. The only reason I haven't willed myself to go back in time and do it all over again is I don't think my lovely Raegan could come with me, and I'd MUCH rather be a regretful 25 with her then a promising 18 without her. OK, so I have now mentally shifted all my "25" goals to "30".... Now being 25 is OK. I need to go somewhere and get carded. that would make it all better. Plus, 25 isn't so old. I refuse to think of it as "a quarter of a century", but rather as " just out of my teens". And really, I feel justified in using that term right up until my 3oth birthday. Then at 30 I will be " right out of my 20's".
OK. all better now.
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Hey! Be careful what you say about thirty. Just the other day I got myself all confused and thought it was MY 30th birthday coming up. I was like, "Steve, I'm not 29, am I?" And he replied, "No, honey, you are going to BE 29. One month before I am." Brat. It always good to set a goal. 25 is still a baby in the whole swing of things.
Yeah, Ethan talks all the time about the big three-oh. I remember on his 25th birthday when we talked about all the goals HE had at 18 for age 25(at 18, he thought he would be married with kids by 25. ha, ha, ha) but, different does not mean worse, just different. Just think--when mom was your age, she had THREE KIDS!
Thank you for all your support and reassurance! It's just, I'm not OLD enough to be 25! I still feel like I'm just starting out in life, not a quarter ( or more) of the way through it.
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