Of BOYS and GIRLS

OK, so THIS is the nursery set I have fallen in LOVE with... and of course, it is Pottery Barn Kids, so it is WAY out of our league. I think I will take inspiration from this set and make something that gives the same feel.... It could easily be made more boy or girl, and I am just totally in LOVE with the whole farm theme.... I mean, you look at all the other ones I've picked out.. ALL farm. I think it's because I'm nervous about the possibility of BOY... and I don't like trucks, sports, dinosaurs, bla bla bla. Farm can be BOY easily... and I like it too! Of course, if I can just be patient for a few more days, the possibility of BOY will either be confirmed or denied, so all over-thinking on my part can stop.. but have you MET me?? I over think everything. So for now I will obsess. It's what I do.

Why the stress about BOY?? Who knows. I wasn't at all nervous when learning about Ragan and about mothering her... but that could be because I had no idea what parenting was... what mothering really WAS... so there was really no starting point FOR nervousness. NOW, however, I have mothered. I have kissed, hugged, loved, diapered, cleaned, dressed.... GIRL. I know what to do with GIRL. I am familiar with GIRL. Comfortable with GIRL... so the thought of BOY... is scary. Will BOY be as great as GIRL? Will I love mothering BOY as much as I love mothering GIRL? I mean, I don't know anything about BOYs!! What if I mess up? Make a wrong decision? Yes, I KNOW Matt will be here too.. and he is BOY so duh... will have more clue then I.. but I will be spending 24 a day, 7 days a week.... the rest of my LIFE being Mother to BOY... which is a BIG job! No bigger a job then Mother to GIRL... but once again, I KNOW girl ( seeing as I am one).

And yet.. I meet these mothers of BOY... and they wouldn't change BOY for the world. They are, in fact, nervous about GIRL... Now isn't that odd?

But a part of me, a small quiet part of me... would absolutely LOVE a mini Matt. It's a good thing, either way. And it is perfectly OK to be nervous about that. Normal, I'm told. In just a few more days, we find out. Hopefully.... all I really want are 10 fingers, 10 toes, great heartrate, no 3rd arm ...that kind of thing. What happens below the belt stays below the belt... I mean after all..... That's just the place you put a diaper. Mothering, no matter if it is BOY or GIRL... is hard, stressful, rewarding, life altering work.

Bring It On.